inner peace

i never entertain philosophy in my blog because i just have this feeling that somewhere people are just so irritated with these so called hypothetical philosophy and great words that they cant stand such shit anymore .(leave aside some idiots who find the worlds time in sitting online reading and writing such philosophies and never practicaly adhering to them)

i just wanted myself to express out some feelings and words which had been occupying my mind and soul for quite a few months.(note :if you find it boring please skip for the next topic or check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYxu_MQSTTY)

for the last one year i have been facing series of events which have been greatly affecting me .

i somehow now feel that all these events have somewhere done the job of leading me towards self realization. today i feel lot more calm than what i was a year before.life has changed greatly,went through various phases.saw mr good ,met with mr bad, and shook hands with mr ugly .it was a complete mixture of all.sometimes when you just look behind from your daily schedule and see whats your daily curriculum today you can directly see the amount of change in you.

blogging was the last thing i used to do in my daily schedule but today i kinda like to fill in my blog with anything and everything( u see thats why i m typing this ),earlier never used to check mails ,today its the first thing i do when i get back to my room. . there was a time when i just used to stick to my cellphone 24*7 but today its just become a mere gadget which tells me time ,plays music ,calender and city blockz. this is one big change which i liked so much and feel that it has realy given me the chance to think and work like a normal being. for the whole last year could never play cricket as i assumed myself to be busy in some fictious work which never was clear to my sight .played cricket after a year and i must tell you i experienced the feeling of a young school going kid enjoying his game of cricket with his friends.it felt realy great.felt as if i was out of some bounds which had been hampering my freedom. it was not just in cricket but in many other things in my life that i found a radical change.there was a time when i used to day dream about various things that should happen in future and wished for them.but today i m just a simple man living life without much thinking and plans..trying to make every day a memorable day for myself.yes i have turned a lot selfish but i dont care.i like it.i m happy this way.

from my past experiences what i could make out is there is no one who is as good as yourself..you know what one of my best buddy always says this "you are in love with your self"

i just love when she says this..hehe and yeah i love myself .a lot more then anyone .

i wanna write more but somehow i dont know whats stops me from expressing myself .but there would be a change soon..

for now feeling sleepy. i hope this demoralising stuff doesnt gets you out of reading my blog.

nexto to come "khan vs khan" starring aamir and shahrukh..watchout.bubye